36 Weeks

Today I'm 36 weeks pregnant. That means that I go to the Doc every week. That means that in 4 weeks give or take, we will have a brand new baby. Ahhhh! I remember doing this last year. Well, I guess a little over a year ago. Today I went in and found out that I'm a finger tip dilated (sound familiar?) and head is definitely down. I could have told you that as I'm able to breather a little easier. With Ruby, I was a finger tip dilated on the day that I started having my first contractions. So, this time around I'm not going to put any thought into it really. I have had a few friends lately who have lost their precious babies and so I don't ever want to sound like I'm not thankful for this pregnancy and the temporary discomforts of pregnancy. I also know many who have tried to conceive and have not been able. It pains me knowing this. So, if you're reading this...please say a prayer right now for the people who are struggling with this.

Today I had a brunch for moms who are new to MOPS. The gal that was sitting next to me is 34 weeks pregnant. She has a two year at home as well. Anyway, she was mentioning that she is in nesting mode and just kinda sounded like she had it together. I turned to my friend and said I'm so behind. Although, the more I think about it, the more I realize that I'm not. We're not. I think we are just not mentally prepared and I don't know that we will be until we have this sweet new babe in our home. Then reality will hit and we will figure it out. Right? Am I right? Oh Lord, please tell me I'm right! ha!


My sister brought us a newborn swing over the weekend. Well, I set it up today and Ruby tried climbing in. I was almost in tears because I remember when she was little enough to fit in that exact swing. Now I caught myself saying, "Sorry sweetie you're too big." It made my heart just ache. Bittersweet I tell you. I'm not ready for Ruby to not be my only baby. I'm not ready for her to be climbing anything and everything. I'm not ready for her to be transitioning to one nap a day. I'm not ready for her to be the "big" sister. I'm soaking up these last days and weeks with my baby girl as much as I can!

So, that is where I'm at. 36 weeks pregnant. I feel kinda huge and getting house chores done are getting to be a drag and being down on the floor with Ruby is a lot more difficult. It will be fun when I can be more active with her because let me tell you...that is exactly what she is. Active. She's pretty awesome!

This is the week of Easter. I know that I should think this way all the time, but it is this time of the year that I feel the most blessed in life. Knowing that Jesus died on the cross for my sins, your sins, everyone's sins. I've been reading in the Old Testament lately and I'm just so thankful that we have the new covenant. Eternity is granted to those of us who place our trust in Him and believe in Him. Seriously. I pray that you are all able to get past the easter eggs, candy, and bunnies (not that stuff isn't all fun...it is) but I pray that we can focus on the meaning behind Easter and be thankful for all that God has done for  us.