Ben often tells me that I will miss these early years. I sometimes agree and sometimes want to punch him in the face. The days are long, but the years are short, right? Listen, parenting is hard. My children rarely play with their toys. They love being outside, they love climbing anything and everything, they love running in circles, they love pushing each other, they love getting into things, and they love pushing buttons. I go insane almost on the daily. I'm not sure I could do this without Jesus. Truthfully.
Just within the last couple of weeks though it happened. I started really wanting Ruby to slow down. She talks so much and it is SO much fun. The things she says, the things she repeats, what she does and says with Stella. I wish I could bottle it all up, or just have a camera in our house that records her all the time. It is so bittersweet seeing her grow. We were going on a walk the other day and we were in the booming downtown of Maple Lake. Ruby climbed up these steps and had her hands on her hips just looking out. You guys, it looked like she was taking a senior picture and I about starting weeping like a little baby right there and then. It made me realize how blessed I am to be able to stay at home and raise these babies. She has become scared of being alone. She won't go downstairs by herself. She won't go down for a nap or go to sleep at night if someone isn't laying down by her crib. Although at nap time today we opened the shades a little bit and Ben rubbed her back for a minute and then she was fine. Tonight I was putting her down and turned on a nightlight and that didn't work. I'm hoping it eventually passes. Any tips?
Stella is a hoot you guys. She has such a big personality, although the outside world may never believe it because she gets pretty shy in front of people. She is so mellow and easy going. She could sit and play with toys by herself, but prefers chasing Ruby around and doing whatever Ruby is doing. She loves to climb and she LOVES to eat. This girl seems to always be hungry. So far she is showing to be a vegetarian though. She will eat ground beef if it is in spaghetti or something, but that is kind of it. She screams loudly. She is talking and will pretty much at least try to repeat what you tell her to say. I think she is officially down to one nap a day. This makes me SUPER happy because I wasn't able to do a lot with my MOMS club stuff because of this. Now it should get a little bit better!
Ben goes back to school on Monday. Well, he has a week of inservice and then starts back with kids on the day after labor day. It's a little sad for me. I have loved having him home. He is such an incredible dad you guys. He plays with the girls, he takes them downstairs when I'm trying to get something done. He is present with them and they adore spending time with him. I know that not all dads are like that and so I'm just so thankful and truly blessed that these girls have Ben as their dad. I am looking forward to having more of a schedule each day though. I need it and I think the girls need it. Ben I think is looking forward to this school year. He has some fun classes that he is teaching this quarter. It is really fun running into some of Ben's students around town. You can tell they respect Ben and have fun with him. Even though Ben comes home deflated some days, he knows that what he is doing is making an impact. His heart for those students is pretty huge.
I'm loving my role as stay at home mom still. It is the hardest thing I've ever done, but I would NEVER change it for a second. I love that I'm getting my health back in check. I've been running outside in preparation for a 5K that I will be doing. I'm hoping to do one for Thanksgiving, but we'll see. I love doing my at home workouts. I love creating a healthy lifestyle for my family. I love helping other women get healthy as well. Helping people is my love language and I feel like this is just one way that I can do that. I will be starting MOPS again this fall, I'm apart of MOMS Club, and I will also be in a new ministry that is starting at our church called Propel. I love being around people and I love that our community offers so much for women!
I feel like this world is pretty broken right now. I hear stories of brokenness and hate. We see it on the news every night. It is my goal to show joy and happiness. Does it mean that I'm always joyful or always happy? Heck no. Sometimes Facebook is bad in the way that it makes people's lives seem perfect. BUT, if I can help turn someone's day around I'm going to try. I want to be someone that encourages others, lifts others up, and show joy and laughter daily. I love my people and I want you all to know that I care so much about you and it is my prayer that you see joy in the little things and big things and trust that God has a plan and purpose for your life. You are valued!
He is the best.
This is Ruby's Senior Picture and the spot where I about lost it. Babies don't keep.
They are joyful.
I had a rare moment of peace this afternoon while these girls napped. It was beautiful!
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